“You will never find happiness if you do not conquer your own doubt.”
At least that is what it says on my tea bag this first Monday of 2011.
The doubt that looms over me most of the time is career-related of course… that I will never care about a professional pursuit enough to invest my time and myself fully, and that I will end up feeling like I’ve wasted my potential. That being said, I have to say, I’m feeling pretty damn happy these days! So I don’t know tea bag… does anyone ever conquer all their doubts? Isn’t that a major part of being human… questioning, striving for self-improvement, finding happiness within and learning how to sustain it? Just some deep thinking brought on by tea bag wisdom. Forgive me.
Anyway – happy new year everyone! We spent a wonderful new year’s eve in fantastic company at our friends home out in Redding, CT. My cheese fondue featuring a mix of Comte and Challerhocker was a total hit – seriously, dipping yummy things in melted cheese is just heaven on earth! We followed up the cheese fondue with a meat fondue – where we cooked a variety of meats and veggies in boiling broth, and then dipped them in an array of homemade dipping sauces. Fondue is so FUN! I think it has become a new year tradition for us (this is now two years in a row).
Photo 266 out of 365 – “New Year’s Fondue”
Saturday was a bit of a blur – sleeping late, enjoying Adam’s famous breakfast frittata then driving back to the city, already dark outside. We had a couple hours to chill before heading out to Tribeca with Amie and Rob for dinner at a restaurant I’ve been excited to try called Locanda Verde. I called for a reservation weeks ago, but the only time they had available was ten o’clock, which actually ended up working out perfectly as it gave us some time to recover from the night before. The restaurant was warm and welcoming – with a delicious Italian-inspired menu. Some of the highlights were:
- Crostini served alongside sheep’s milk ricotta with sea salt and herbs
- Lamb meatball sliders with caprino and cucumber
- Spice-glazed duck with cavolo nero, farro piccolo and pomegranate
- Gigantone pasta with pulled pork ragu and provolone piccante
I really enjoyed the dinner and I was so in love with the farro! I’ve never cooked farro before, but I love the texture and chew, I’m planning on picking some up to try at home!
After dinner we hung out at Rob & Amie’s apartment, where I had some fun with one of my new birthday presents – these awesome color filters Adam got me from Photojojo.
Photo 267 out of 365 – “Rob is Green!”
Then yesterday was the big 3-2! I decided to cook up another batch of that bacon and black bean chili since it was so good the first time – and I invited some friends over to ‘chill and chili’ with me. The chili was a success – though I must admit… I was a little over-ambitious with the whole cooking and entertaining thing in the aftermath of the prior two nights of drunken celebration. My brain wasn’t really loving me. And I could barely eat the chili myself (too much rich food!) … though everyone else seemed to enjoy it! By the end of the evening, I realized I hadn’t really taken any photos so Yvonne and I snapped a photo of each other taking a photo. She’s a fellow 365er and she baked me a red velvet birthday cake. You rule Yvonne!
Photo 268 out of 365 – “Yvonne Through the Lens”
Anyway – a fantastic start to the new year! And now after all the eating and drinking and merriness, it’s time to get on with all that exercising and getting in shape stuff I listed as a resolution for 2011. No more procrastinating. It’s on baby.
“Rob is Green” – Looks like someone is getting back at me for something 🙂 Love the color filters.
haha… what would I be getting you back for?? my ugliest ever myspace picture that magically appeared on my profile?? oh – i’m over that. 🙂 anyways, I always think you look cute Robbie!
i have to say, i think it’s very cool the way you phrased or characterized your doubt. your doubt isn’t about whether you might fail, whether you might not have enough money, what others might think — your doubt is the fear “that I will never care about a professional pursuit enough to invest my time and myself fully, and that I will end up feeling like I’ve wasted my potential.” just wording it that way shows that your biggest priority is to live your life passionately and to the fullest. and reminds me that my biggest fear should not be fear of failure — it should be fear of indifference! so i guess what i’m saying is that if you have to feel some doubt, i think yours is a pretty enlightened doubt! happy new year and happy birthday!