Photo 327 out of 365 – “Sunset Over Lower Manhattan”
Yesterday I didn’t leave the house. I cleaned, I did laundry, I edited photos, I blogged about politics (that one took me a while – serious stuff), I prepped for dinner and then all of a sudden I looked out the window and the sky looked like that. So I grabbed my camera, threw on my jacket and ran up to the roof, passing the high school boys from my building huddled in the stairwell smoking a joint on my way. I got to the roof, set up my shot, took three pictures and POOF… the sun was gone. This was the first photo I took. Talk about timing.
Anyway, I had a really great lunch with a friend today and we were discussing my career/life situation. On a day-to-day basis I’ve been super happy, exploring my passions, learning new skills, taking care of my hubs and our life together and meeting many new awesome people. But stepping back, I still have this underlying sense of restlessness. I’m unsettled… I still feel like I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing! I had come to the conclusion that it was because I was not earning any money… and if I earned money, then I’d feel more accomplished and that feeling would go away. But I don’t really think it’s about the money. So is it the respect? Do I need a big official pat on the back? I used to get “A”s in school and promotions at work – do I need a report card to make me feel ok about what I’m doing? All of this and more was discussed – but I’d like to let it stew in my head a bit before I write more.
Stay tuned and thanks for reading.