It’s creeping in… I can feel it.  I took a few days off blogging over the weekend – as I felt rather blocked – and a little moody.  I think it’s the completion of my 365 project.  For an entire year, I had a daily goal – something I was continuously working towards and now it’s done.  It is a relief and a burden at the same time.  I’ve been deciding on a daily basis now – whether or not to bring my camera with me when I go out.  Sometimes I make the choice to be unencumbered and I leave it at home, giving me the opportunity to actually sport a cute purse for a change (instead of my big ass camera bag).  I feel light and free for a few minutes and then this pit develops in my stomach (guilt? regret?) and continues to gnaw at me as I see one amazing photo op after another that I am missing out on and will never be able to capture again.  Other days, I decide to bring my camera with me, and I see nothing – and it rains, and I’m worried about it getting wet, and my shoulder hurts and I’m annoyed that I’m stuck lugging it around all day.  Wah wah … and so it goes.

Now that this project is over, I’m feeling a craving for some sort of external experience… something that’s not at all about me. Like my time spent at the nursing home (which I still do every week and love) – but something else.  Something where I can get outside of myself a bit and get a little perspective.  I’ve been putting so much OUT this last year… blogging, posting my photos, etc.  I’m a little sick of me!  I feel like I need to spend some time absorbing now – to re-fill the tank a bit.  You know?  I kind of want to hole myself up in my apartment for a week and read like twenty books in a row and not talk to anyone.  Is that weird?  Or else it might be time to go on a trip somewhere I’ve never been – somewhere quiet and beautiful to get re-inspired.  New York is feeling rather draining to me at the moment.  Anyway, little miss moody today – huh?  I’m sure I’ll snap out of it.  It is a foggy gray Monday and all.

Here’s a cool picture I took of Adam waiting for the subway yesterday… love the bokeh!

Adam Underground

and a gnarly old tree in Tompkins Square Park:

Gnarly Old Tree Trunk